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Post by silverdreams on Apr 27, 2009 23:17:55 GMT -5
A lot of things have happened all at once... I'll just make a short list for now and if anyone wants anything explained, I'll be happy to do so. =============================================================================LIST OF SHIT
Brought to you in no particular order. •Grandmother got sick and passed away. •I managed to get a job at Arby's. •I might be getting a COP CAR from an auction in California. •I'm horribly sick right now and have no voice. •I'm stressing about graduation in May. •I went out to California and missed Anizona. •I went out to California and missed playing DnD for the first time in FOREVER. •I'm starting to get depressed and annoyed with everybody. (Please don't take anything I say personally...) •I feel like a useless bum because I can't pay for anything myself and at every turn my dad is making that very clear. •I have to go to the dentist in May and get a bunch of cavities filled because I slacked on flossing. They say the next step is Root Canals if I keep forgetting... •I still have no idea what I'm going to do after I graduate. Dad is still practically demanding that I go to college anyway. =============================================================================Seems like a lot, huh? Well, there are a few other things I'd like to get off of my mind, but because I don't want to sound like an awful person and make a few of you pissed at me so I'll keep it to myself. (Don't ask about that last part.) |
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Post by silverdreams on Apr 30, 2009 17:45:47 GMT -5
So my dad is now angry at me because my soon to be boss is kind of a flake and starting me next week instead of this weekend. I really hate it when he does this. My dad needs to understand that I really can't control a lot of stuff so he needs to stop expecting me to! It really upsets me when he does this sort of thing because I start to feel like all I ever do around him is fail at everything. He always makes me feel insignificant.
It doesn't really help that one of the talks we had at one point a while back (while he was drunk as usual, mind you) was about me being a mistake... What am I supposed to say to this? It really made me feel like an awful person for screwing up whatever life he could have had without me.
I think my dad is one of the main reasons I've contemplated suicide.
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Post by CosplayZone on Apr 30, 2009 23:18:23 GMT -5
*hugs to you* well we are both having job issues. mine is the opposite funny enough. but yeah.. anyway *hug*
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Post by silverdreams on May 1, 2009 17:13:04 GMT -5
*hugs to you* well we are both having job issues. mine is the opposite funny enough. but yeah.. anyway *hug* *Hugs back* Thanks. I think most people are having job problems right now. |
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Post by sethbramwell on May 4, 2009 13:23:11 GMT -5
:: big hugs :: I'm so sorry to hear about the troubles hun. Don't let anyone steal the fact that you are an awesome person. Anyone who fails to recognize that can... well, I wonpt say what I'm thinking cause I want to keep this PG XD
Trust me, I know how difficult that is to think considering the source of your frustration... but you can't let others own your emotions. Life is just too short for that mess.
:: hugs once again ::
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Post by silverdreams on May 4, 2009 19:53:17 GMT -5
:: big hugs :: I'm so sorry to hear about the troubles hun. Don't let anyone steal the fact that you are an awesome person. Anyone who fails to recognize that can... well, I wonpt say what I'm thinking cause I want to keep this PG XD Trust me, I know how difficult that is to think considering the source of your frustration... but you can't let others own your emotions. Life is just too short for that mess. :: hugs once again :: Thanks for the sympathy, I think I really need a little of it. I try my hardest not to be controlled by him, but it's difficult considering I have to live with him until October... |
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Post by Kadagan D on May 5, 2009 1:04:22 GMT -5
weee October! 5 more months.
*tama nuzzle* - NERM >--
Well, we should hang out. I work mon, thurs and Sat all day but any other day i'm free after the morning once I'm done at the studios. We don't start the next season still for another like 2-3 weeks or something like that, so i'm pretty free-ish atm. just drop me a text if ya wanna hang!
(i was to lazy to log in)
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Post by Mommy REL on May 5, 2009 15:40:12 GMT -5
Hey I'm sorry to hear that all of this crap is happening to you....
I agree with Seth you are an awesome person and you should try to keep that in mind when those situations happen.... ^__^
You know I had another friend that was contently reminded that they were a mistake... Neither of you were mistakes and you are here for a reason and a perpous!!! (and I can't spell sorry LOL) If you were 'mistakes' then God would have taken you while you weren't even close to being born (ie: egg/sperm) But you were ment to be here so that people could love you and to be loved by you!
**Huggles!!**
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Post by silverdreams on May 5, 2009 16:59:46 GMT -5
Alright guys. I've made a very big decision. In October, when I turn 18, I am going to move in with my friend Rose (Jessica). I have already discussed this with her and she has talked to her parents about it. As long as I don't sit around and be a lazy bum, I should be fine.
Unfortunately, I haven't mentioned anything to my dad. I'm not sure how he'll react and if he'll even let me go or try to keep me here. I love my dad, but I can't take it any more. He has threatened that if I don't get a decent job in the next two weeks (by May 21st, when school lets out) I am not going to be allowed to do anything.
I sort of understand that he wants me to get a job, but being an impatient asshole and threatening me with taking away my freedoms is too much. He needs to learn that the punishment system of motivation doesn't help me, it scares the crap out of me and makes me want to go crawl in a hole and die.
Please wish me luck when I plan on telling him. I don't know if I'll be able to be on the internet after I do,even if I have a job.
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Post by Goldfish on May 6, 2009 18:57:47 GMT -5
Good luck *hugs*
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Post by silverdreams on May 8, 2009 19:08:57 GMT -5
*Hugs back.* Thank you.
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Post by silverdreams on May 12, 2009 17:01:25 GMT -5
Big news time, guys! I've officially started working as of Sunday, May 10. I know this post is a little late, but I've been tired and lazy. My next work day is this Thursday at 5:30, so to those of you that know where I work DON'T SHOW UP. =/ No free sandwiches for you.
My dad took a trip to get more fireworks last weekend and he got a whole carp load of big stuff. So nothing for me to play with while he isn't home. )=
Things have been going pretty good since the last time I posted. I'm getting really nervous and panic ridden because of graduation coming up so quickly.
Speaking of Graduation, if anyone wants to come it's at 7:30 at the University of Phoenix Stadium. If you don't want to come, that's fine to. Just send your "Happy Graduation!!!1!" texts before 5 or I won't answer them. We aren't allowed to have our phones with us during the ceremony and I have to be there by 6.
Anyway, that's all for now.
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Post by sethbramwell on May 12, 2009 20:06:10 GMT -5
:-D Congratulations all around, on the job and school!
(and on fireworks... nothing says fun times like a good amount of small explosive)
Happy Graduation... Nekozawa is proud of the kitten ;-)
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Post by silverdreams on May 13, 2009 17:00:20 GMT -5
:-D Congratulations all around, on the job and school! (and on fireworks... nothing says fun times like a good amount of small explosive) Happy Graduation... Nekozawa is proud of the kitten ;-) Thank you, thank you and thank you! =3 =^_^= |
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Post by silverdreams on May 21, 2009 18:45:09 GMT -5
Guys! I'm graduating in less than 3 hours! I'm also wearing a strangely short dress and... Heels?
If you're a last minute "I WANNA GO" person, here's the where and when:
University of Phoenix Stadium
7:30 pm
Gate 3
This may be your only chance to see me in this apparel (even though there's going to be a graduation gown thingy over it) so take your pictures while you can.
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